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Tuesday, February 21, 2006

The Lost Parade

Sorry for the title... that's the song I'm listening to. Yeah... I, Synthesist is the bomb (as in awesomely awesome/tubular I love them.... not they have weapons of mass destruction - so don't get all excited, dear US government officials).

Okay, first item of business.

For the past few weeks, I have been out of my first semester classes (sadness!!!).

Now I have:

Speechcraft
Psychology
Chemistry
Honors English

Which is sad. No creative outlet classes. Just boredom. -.- I'm saddened. I miss drama :'(

Had a dream last night of taking an English test.... I was supposed to write a synopsis of Of Mice and Men.... and at the end of the 85 minutes, all I had done was half of the title. And it wasn't Of Mice and Men. I wrote "Everybody Counts" on my paper and the title was "Doubt Counts" What do you suppose my subconscious is trying to tell me?

And Saturday night (the power having been out since Friday morning), I had a dream and ended up talking to my mum in my sleep. She says it went a little something like this:

"I can't! I can't!"
"It's okay, honey, it's okay if you can't."
"Does this mean you won't blind me?"

What the HELL is up with my subconscious?! I think it needs serious treatment.

OH! And I have a monologue that I have to do in front of my English class on Monday!!!! Only... I was ready to do it Friday... and was supposed to do it Friday. So my nerves are shit! I guess it doesn't help that I ended up bawling (and I mean bawling) in class on Friday because I found out I wasn't going to get to go. The only problem with shutting off all your feelings... when they finally burst through, you have waterfalls. And people noticed!! I can't just forget! I'll be weak around those people for as long as I know them! That just pisses me off -.-

Anyway..... toodles.

~Lema